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Maybe You

26 Nov

And if you thought about it, if it’s there in the back of your mind
And if you still remember, if you’re reading my name between the lines
If you got an emptiness inside, we should let our worlds recollide.
And though it really hurts sometimes, it was always true.

– Say Lou Lou.

Daughter – Candles

27 Jul

That boy, take me away, into the night
Out of the hum of the street lights and into a forest
I’ll do whatever you say to me in the dark
Scared I’ll be torn apart by a wolf in mask of a familiar name on a birthday card

Blow out all the candles, blow out all the candles
“You’re too old to be so shy,” he says to me so I stay the night
Just a young heart confusing my mind, but we’re both in silence
Wide-eyed, both in silence
Wide-eyed, like we’re in a crime scene

Well I have brittle bones it seems
I bite my tongue and torch my dreams
Have a little voice to speak with
And a mind of thoughts and secrecy
Things cannot be reversed, we learn from the times we are cursed
Things cannot be reversed, learn from the ones we fear the worst
And learn from the ones we hate the most how to

Blow out all the candles, blow out all the candles
“You’re too old to be so shy,” he says to me so I stay the night
Just a young heart confusing my mind, but we’re both in silence
Wide-eyed, both in silence
Wide-eyed

Cause we both know I’ll never be your lover
I only bring the heat
Company under cover
Filling space in your sheets
Well I’ll never be a lover
I only bring the heat
Company under cover
Filling space in your sheets, in your sheets

So, please just blow out all the candles, blow out all the candles
“You’re too old to be so shy,” he says to me so I stay the night
It’s just a young heart confusing my mind, but we’re both in silence
Wide-eyed, both in silence
Wide-eyed, like we’re in a crime scene.

Far, Far Away

18 Jul

You know what the furthest thing from our reach is?

It is the past. Because no matter how hard you try, you will never get there.

For Women Who Are Difficult To Love

30 Jun

[Warsan Shire]

you are a horse running alone
and he tries to tame you
compares you to an impossible highway
to a burning house
says you are blinding him
that he could never leave you
forget you
want anything but you
you dizzy him, you are unbearable
every woman before or after you
is doused in your name
you fill his mouth
his teeth ache with memory of taste
his body just a long shadow seeking yours
but you are always too intense
frightening in the way you want him
unashamed and sacrificial
he tells you that no man can live up to the one who
lives in your head
and you tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.

Handful Of Anger

3 Jun

Usually when people are sad, they don’t do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change.

– James Russell Lowell

One of the most frequent comments I hear about myself from people is that I am angry. This is my reason.

Coolest Husband Ever

19 Aug

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When and if I get married, finding a cute note like that from my future hubby would be the best thing ever.

Call Me, Maybe?

19 Aug

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Lol. Typical. Sort of a shame all the fasting and repentance goes down the drain once Ramadan is over. But a hilarious depiction nonetheless. Woot Woot, Arab Memes! 🙂

Eid Mubarak!

Eternal Sunshine

16 Aug

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Much truth lies in this quote. One of my favourite movies ever *_*

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Transformed

2 Aug

Bilal Khan is simply one of my favourite lyricists, and shuffle brought this song up… just at the right time to be the easiest thing to relate to…

He has left this place
After losing everything he had.
He whom you had known
Is here no more
Is here no more.

That man I am no more,
I have changed, I’m not the same.
Somehow, the rest of this life will pass by.

How should I tell that he is here no more?
How should I tell that he is gone away?
How should I tell that he won’t come back now?
How should I tell? How should I say?
He is here no more,
He is here no more.

That man I am no more,
I have changed, I’m not the same.
Somehow, the rest of this life will pass by.

Look right into my eyes with yours,
Are you able to see me? Look into them and you’ll see that…

That man I am no more,
I have changed, I’m not the same.
Somehow, the rest of this life will pass by.

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Everything’s Gonna Be Fine, Fine, Fine

25 Jul

Starters -> no, I am not a Morissette fan.

But last night, I just happened to lay back and reflect where I am standing in life right now, and this song randomly starts playing in my head and I couldn’t help but smile.

I am broke like anything. I’m continuously being teased about my height – most of it is friendly teasing – I hope so at least. I am young, and I am way underpaid for what my mind and determination are worth.

But I am still always smiling, absorbing happiness from little things around me, genuinely helping my customers for no extra cost, and feeling on top of the world when they thank me with all their heart for being so patient and understanding towards them.

I realize I have mastered the art of patience. Minus when I am not being understood – I boil up really fast there trying to get my point across. But I am a lot calmer now about it than I was before.

There was a time when I couldn’t deal with elders without rolling my eyes. Now, I am more than willing to help and actually enjoy showing them how to operate their new phones and teaching them little tricks as well. They come back, they remember me, and they look for me to help them with what they want. I guess I couldn’t ask for more – being appreciated makes up for barely making enough to survive.

I am not settling yet, though. I did go seek out better opportunities. I met with another employer who I impressed in an instant, and got offered a much better pay and post in stage 1 of a three-stage interview process. But the only obstacle was the fact I don’t have a car. And it was enough to not being able to accept the opportunity. Bummer.

So, I do thank God for giving me the strength and patience to be happy in life despite where I stand in life. I have a plan, I am pursuing it, and if it is the right thing for me, I know it will happen. I am a chameleon, I’ll blend into whatever path I am being made to walk down on.

In the meantime, there’s no better way to describe me and my life than this song =)